Maybe a good night’s sleep will help.
(Good night’s sleep happens, over and over, and still it hasn’t helped.)
* * * * *
Maybe things will get better with time.
(Time keeps ticking on and nothing’s looking any better.)
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Maybe once I finish this task, or that other one, or that other other one, I’ll feel a load lifted off my shoulders.
(Those completed tasks depleted so much from me, I don’t have the wherewithal to rejoice.)
* * * * *
Maybe if I do something fun, I will reset myself and renew my outlook.
(Fun things don’t feel as fun as they used to. In order to do something fun, the fun has to be felt or it’s not technically a case of “having fun”.)
* * * * *
Maybe if I talk to some friends, I’ll feel better.
(Talking to a friend and talking with a friend aren’t the same thing. I don’t feel heard. I feel worse.)
* * * * *
Maybe if I get away alone for a few hours, I will return with a better outlook.
(I come back and I’m still here.)
* * * * *
Maybe if I keep talking to God about my pain, I will find peace.
(I am only reminded of how much I want to be out of this world and into His face-to-face presence.)
* * * * *
Maybe I need more water, more fresh greens, more sunshine. Maybe I need to run more.
Maybe I need less caffeine, less carbs, less rain.
Maybe I need less words.
Nothing’s working.
Maybe I need medication.
I’m sorry.
I don’t have the answers.
Today or tomorrow you will find out the answers.
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That would be nice. Thank you for reading and for saying that.
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Maybe it is the sound of the T.V. There is something evil in it that messes with my brain. Even after it’s been off for hours, I still feel it. I have hated TV with a passion since the 1980s and would love to blow it up.
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I found your email in my general mail spam bin. Along with much more. I will be reading and answering soon. I’m very sorry for the delay.
I’m sorry to see your words here. That you are having a bad stretch in time. Judging by your post here, your writing and way with words have not suffered. Something positive. Just sayin’ I won’t try to offer any other words at this time. I know words don’t help…except maybe the words, the ancient words.
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I am glad the email was found. I looked back to see where I sent it and realized there were two different email addresses I had for you, the other being on Outlook. And thank you for your words here. I appreciate them, my writer friend and brother in Christ.
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Will write soon. π
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Sounds like classic symptoms of depression Christine. Iβve been there. Medication helped.
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Good to hear medicine helped someone, whomever you are that knows my name. Any clues to help me know who you are?
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I understand “Broken” Ahhh Steeny, hang in there.
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Thanks for understanding and encouraging, brother. And I somehow missed this comment till now. Sometimes I get so rushed, all I can do is quickly glance at WordPress notifications and intend to read them more slowly later. Then a new wave of busyness hits. Ah, life, eh? So imperfect. Looking forward to perfect days, though. Maranatha!
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You still hanging in there Steeny?
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Yes, brother. Thank you so much for asking.
I was actually poking around in my WordPress dashboard earlier today, and got to thinking about how I look forward to blogging again as summer fades, if the Lord tarries. Iβd rather be with Him, though, and I cry MARANATHA from the depths of my soul!
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I know what you mean (and feel).
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